Resonated with Rachel

Upon reading a book review from an Indian blogger I just came to fall in love with, I decided to give "The Girl on the Train' a try. I didn't see the movie yet, but I knew reading it would be more eye opening than visually seeing the movie. I completed the book I borrowed from the library in 2-3 days. It was good. Not just the story, but the characters themselves.

In a gist, there are three main ladies who are narrating their side of the story, Rachel, Megan and Anna. Rachel is the main lead, who is divorced from her love of her life, Tom, because of her drinking problem. Then there's Anna, the new wife Tom married. And then Megan -  the girl shes see on her way everyday, to and from in the train where she sits. Rachel is the girl on the train by the way.

I am not sure how the movie was directed, but from what I read, with regards to Rachel -  I learnt how fallible, vulnerable a person can be at their deepest darkest moment in life. Shes a drunk and the its described how she deals with it daily,how she lost her job, her marriage, her house and identity and how she can't seem to move on with it.

I mean I feel like shaking her and tell her to move on and stop whining about Tom. She's been portrayed as a pitiful, desperate to please by strangers who don't know her and a stalker by Anna and her new family she created with her ex husband.

But the part I resonated with her so strongly was the pivotal point in her life where she started to drink and life fall apart from then. Her desire to have a child and how she was not able to, how she felt about it, what she went through, how she felt when shes sees people all around her getting pregnant, how isolated she felt in her misery how she based her values about her and how she fell apart when Anna gave birth and Tom updated about it in his FB knowing Rachel will definitely see it.

Excerpt from the book:

"I felt isolated in my misery. I became lonely, so I drank a bit, and then a bit more, and then I became lonelier, because no one likes being around a drunk. I lost and I drank and I drank and I lost. I liked my job, but I didn’t have a glittering career, and even if I had, let’s be honest: women are still only really valued for two things—their looks and their role as mothers. I’m not beautiful, and I can’t have kids, so what does that make me? Worthless"

I felt so much for her. I think that would have been me if I was allowed to drink. Here is a person who has lost so much confidence in herself, and in life and can't seem to move on. Its described very well in a way that anyone can relate to it. For that -  I love this book.

Its a thriller by the way and the ending is good. But like always -  reading it is so much better than watching it.

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