My Birthday 2017
I ran out of
topics to blog about for the month of February. I was not busy. Actually I was,
but not that busy enough to not blog.
This is
March. I love March and I hate March. Love it because it is my birthday month.
Hate it because it has got 31 days and pay day comes a little late and I am
usually broke before the end of it.
I have no
idea what the big deal of having a birthday is. When I was young, yes it was a
big deal or my family made a big deal out of it. Now that I am older, it’s a reminder
that I am biologically getting older, my cells are tired and may not be
reproducing enough stuffs to keep me alive and more closer to countless doctor’s
appointment dates for pains all over the body. Yikes.
Also - I have
realized, I don’t celebrate anything much anymore. The last thing I celebrated
was Eid - like three years ago. The cleanup was enough to bar me from having
any more entertainments at home. Even my kid has asked when we were going to
have people home again. Being the only person who organizes everything from the
preparation to the cleanup - it’s tiring for me to think about celebrating. I didn’t
celebrate the New Year, Hubby’s birthday and my son’s birthday this year. All
we did is have dinner outside and stay home to cut cake and sleep.
And my birthday
is tomorrow and I want nothing more than to go home and sleep after watching
Netflix. I really do. I think the reason why dining out is no longer fun
because we are dining out more often.
And we are
dining more often because I am too tired to cook after work and picking kid
from school.
Having a celebration
with people at home means extra money and extra work. I would rather just go
out have the dinner and back home to rest. I need the rest. Even now as I type this, I contemplate taking
on a new celebration to be celebrated with people at home - but nah!
I can’t be bothered.
So now back
to my birthday. I love celebrating birthday and I love getting gifts and flowers
and expensive bags. I like that a lot. I am a real frilly girl in that manner I’m
afraid. I would love to be pampered with gifts like Anastasia was in the Grey
series. Too much to ask? May be it is.
Anyway check out how my birthdays have been in the last few years:
Mar 2016
- Jobless. Parents in law were in town. Lunch
with mum and then Dinner with them at a fancy restaurant.
Mar 2015
- Had to ask hubby to surprise me with
cake. Mum bought me 2 new re Murano charms. Bought her lunch and money plants
for home. Hubby gave me cash and bought me makeup. (http://www.nathira.com/2015/03/happy-birthday-to-me.html)
Mar 2014 –
Lunch at Moroccan restaurant with hubby and kid. Blew a candle on a piece of
rainbow cake. Did nothing much but lament and complain.
Mar 2013
- Birthday retreat at a hotel. Was
studying for my degree and remembered
working on assignments in the hotel room. My class mates came to the hotel to
celebrate it with me. Hotel gave me surprise cake. Veeren was born
Mar 2012
- Hubby bought jewelery set and matching
purse from Chomel and dinner in Swensons. Normal day sounded happy. Wished for
macbook air, iphone, Pandora charms and a baby girl.
Mar 2011 –
Hubby forgot. No gifts nothing. Complained that it was the worst birthday ever.
But then that was the deal breaking year too…so this is excused
Mar
2010 - Brother in law was in town. Hubby
and him surprised me with a Nutella cake in the middle of the night. Lunch at
Amara and got some beautiful bouquet too. Things were simpler, talked about
achievements ( nothing much).
Mar 2009
- No information on this sadly. Must
have been a real boring one for me to forget it. But it seems I celebrated
Raihaan’s first birthday during this time.
In laws were in town.
Mar 2008
- Again no information. This was because
Raihaan was just born. But I do remember Thameem bought flowers and a new photo
printer ( I requested).
Mar 2007 - No information from this blog. But from my
diary - it seem hubby was not in town. I
received midnight calls from sis and hubby and messages.
Anything before
that - I really cannot remember.
Yes, I love
gifts, materials and all. But I am always grateful. Grateful to be alive and
with the family I love. Thought I have
lamented, complained, whined and got depressed about having another child
- I think this has went for a long time
now.
First half
of my adult life, I was lamenting about the lack of love and the 2nd
half about having children. I was lucky to have Raihaan born immediately after
seeking treatment. So instead of thinking about a child that was never going to
come, I would rather say goodbye to them.
Birthday
wish - To be with my lovely son,
wonderful hubby and beautiful mother and family. I don’t want anything to
change. I love the way my life turned out and am grateful so. Happy Birthday to
me.